Noah is doing a bit better. I’ve been plying him with antibotics, fluids, vitamins, breathing treatments, you name it. He seems to have more energy and the fever seems to have broke. Im hoping another good night sleep will make a world of difference.

I dont know if I will get another chance to update here before Vegas… or if I can update in Vegas. Looks like the weather will be crapola. (sigh) Just my week I guess. I will be back on Thursday.

Grandpa was able to sleep most of today. I am very worried that he might not make it till we get there. I might go early. I’m going to wait and see how he is after Vegas.

The most frustrating thing for me is that I feel like the people in my family who are in control of this situation with my grandfather seem to be somewhat fatalistic. I mean it’s not like I think he’s going to recover…but let’s not BURY the guy yet! They are making decisions without being experts. Without having the advice of experts. They are acting all confident and I know they don’t know shit about Liver Cancer. I mean… they simply have the attitude “nothing can be done — he’s dying”. When in fact, maybe there is something that can make what time left better. So like my sister read on the Internet… Liver Cancer patients shouldn’t eat shellfish. We mention this to my mom, and her response is: Well… if its something he wants to eat, then why not let him enjoy it”. I understand her reasoning, but maybe it’s actually dangerous. Another thing is that we’ve read that glucose drips are good to give Liver Cancer patients. Well hospice wont give glucose cause it prolongs life. But the man isn’t eating much and is dehydrating. Plus…the more liquid that can be processed to clean stuff out his body thru the kidneys (instead of the liver) the better. But no… she doesn’t want to talk about it. It’s frustrating. I know this is her dad and she is a nurse… but truthfully i think she’s not “all knowing”. And they don’t want to consult with an expert because they don’t want to prolong life. Well why not consult with an expert to improve QUALITY of life? So fucking frustrating.

It’s hard to be a control freak in a family of control freaks.

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