I’m thinking about the things I want to accomplish with my free time when my kids go to school. Where do I want to bring about change in my life this year? What area of my life do I want to improve? I want to create something new in my life…but I am unsure which area to focus on.

Well I could focus on my body. That is by far the easiest thing for me to focus on. I could exercise and get myself into better shape. Lose 25 lbs. Perhaps get a little liposuction and skin tightening to the areas that just aren’t responsive to weightloss. But will that give me the dramatic PUNCH I want? Does anything here really feel more dramatic then losing 160 lbs?

Then I thought I could focus on my finances. I could set a goal to make enough money in the next couple years so that John could retire. But the cost for that would be huge. I would have to give up volunteering. It would require 50 hour work weeks for me and lots of creativity.

I could focus on my home. But you know I did that last year. I got new furniture and made my home a sanctuary. I’m very happy with my home. Although I would like to put in a stone deck and do some “curb appeal” to the outside of my house.

I could focus on my spirit. I could go back to church. I could go on the silence retreat I have been thinking about. I could create the little spirituality “book club” type environment I have been toying with.

I could focus on my mental health. I could go to therapy and try to tie up all the loose ends with regards to being sexually assaulted, my family issues, eating disorders and other past indiscretions. This working on the mental health would take a long time. And perhaps I would feel better.

I could start a new business. I feel like having something to point to now that the kids will all be in school would be rewarding. I could say “I’m working on that”. Problem is, when it comes to businesses, I’m pretty successful at creating them, but not so happy maintaining them.

I could help someone else achieve their goals. I’ve always wondered if this would work. This really sort of appeals to me. Helping someone else set a goal and then achieving it. I guess I could tie this to a business, but actually I think I would enjoy it so much I could just do it for free.

I could just focus on “being present” for my life. Not trying to busy myself up with a bunch of noise. Enjoy my family, my friends and the life I have created without trying to improve on anything. Interesting concept.

No answers yet… but I’m still thinking!

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