Oye. Running is hard. I am in this phase right now where it is really really really hard to get my big ass out there on the road. You see I have transitioned from running on the treadmill to running on a padded track. And now I am running on asphalt. Pavement running? It’s harder on the body. I assumed because I was running over 3 miles on a padded track, that I would have no trouble transitioning to the road.

Oh I can be so pigheaded sometimes.

Turns out… road running is way harder. I don’t know if it’s the hills or the pavement or what… but until today’s run, it has been KILLING ME. We are talking massive soreness after my run. We are talking runs where I had to take walking breaks. We are talking runs where when I was finished, I felt like I didn’t improve over the last time. I was running shorter distances slower. It was and is, very demoralizing. This is really the first time I have had to push myself to get out there.

It’s cold. It’s wet. I’m slower. I feel fat. I feel like im not making any progress. Ugh. It’s hard to motivate yourself when you feel like that.

A week ago, I gave myself this pep talk about being more positive. It sorta worked. Maybe in other areas of my life. But not so much running. I just didn’t feel motivated to run.

It’s a dangerous place really. I feel myself on this slippery slope. I dont think I’d give up fitness but I do think I would take some time off….

Today my friend said she would meet me for coffee at Starbucks and we both ran there. Not together mind you… because she runs like a 9 min mile. But we met up. And it was motivating to get me out of the house. Anyway…. I did today’s run really slow. Just focused on moving and not beating myself up about my speed. It greatly helped.

I’m hoping I am over the hump. I ran 2.5 miles today. I ran 3.5 miles on Saturday. I know that doesn’t sound like I’m in a hump, but trust me I am. Today is the first day I feel like my hips aren’t killing me. So I feel like MAYBE I am actually making some progress. Maybe I can look at today (even though I went REALLY slow) as progress… that Im not hurting and my body is adapting.

Nothing sucks the joy out of running for me more then pain. I am a WIMP.

So… in good news, I got my DEXA scan results back. DEXA is a scan that measures bone density. Since I have an extremely distal weight loss surgery, it’s about impossible for me to put on bone. I take prescription Vitamin D and high levels of calcium, and even still, my blood work is showing my body is having to leach calcium from my bone. But my Dexa showed that I put bone ON in my hips. It’s almost a miracle really. I am very happy about that and attribute the success to running.

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