There is sun!!! I am happy! I ran 3.25 miles today and I ran it faster then I have ever run outside before. FINALLY my body is starting to acclimate to outdoor running. I am so freaking slow! But today’s run was really good. One of those runs where you just feel the energy surging into you. I love it! What I thought about today was the fact that I do have another mental block about running that I am working through. And that is about distance.

Even though I have done it, I am afraid to go “farther” because I’m worried I am going to stuck somewhere. Sounds ridiculous, I know. But I guess I “managed” the amount of exertion that I put into moving my former 360 lb body… that I still out of habit manage my life a bit that way. So when I run… I tend to run in circles, in close proximity to where I need to get back to. I can take a “shortcut” and get back there will less effort if I need to. Which is really ridiculous… but I am more then capable of walking back. But without even realizing it… this is how I was managing my running. I’d stay on a treadmill. I’d run around the track.

I wonder how much of my life is like that. How many times I don’t venture out because I am worried about the effort or my ability to endure. Heh. More then I care to admit.

Now I am breaking free in so many ways.

Just thought I’d share that with you guys.

Today I’m going out to lunch with girlfriends to celebrate my birthday a week ago. Should be fun. Then I’m watching some kids after school because my friend has a doctor appointment.

On my todo list for today is:

• Get a family photography appointment
• Clean my house (Wednesday is chore day at our house)
• Goal: Laundry done! (will never happen)
• Get the clothes that don’t fit or I don’t wear out of my closet and all the crap that can be stored in the attic “moved to the attic”
• Figure out what appetizers I am going to serve for the party on Monday

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