I’ve been quiet. But life hasn’t. We had the most lame snow days ever here on the eastside of Seattle. Two and half days of no school. After a week of half days for conferences and two days off for Turkey Day. I about went insane. Normally, I can be pretty present with my kids. I pride myself on my emotional growth over the last several years. I can allow myself time and space to be emotionally available and really savor being with them.

Not so this break. I am spent.

I dont know what it was, but they were just awful. Or I was. They were physical. They wrestled. They were mouthy. They argued. They fought.

I think part of it was that I wasn’t able to really be present with them. John and I are in the midst of a new TV purchase, rewiring our house and moving rooms around. So it seemed like whenever the kids needed me… I was actually irritated with them for wanting me. Couldn’t they see I was trying to get things done?! Of course, I know I am the one at fault here. But it doesn’t make it easier.

They went back to school today. (Thank God).

So I guess I could talk here about how we are hemmoraging money. My husband is having a medical procedure not covered by insurance. I bought a new sectional. We bought a big LCD screen TV for the family room. We are going to buy a puppy. Christmas is here. Our insurance on the house in Florida went up. We bought a new internet router cause ours was sending packet errors or something. We want a Wii!!! We just dont seem to be “denying” ourselves much of anything lately and it truthfully must stop. And it will. After Christmas. Ha. Oh…and all this is on top of paying two mortgages this year.

I hate whiney blog posts. But it’s my blog.

Ok so the parental units are coming for Christmas. And that has driven a lot of this purchasing. Dad can’t see the rear projection TV, so we *had* to buy the dreamy 46 inch LCD HDTV we’ve been wanting. And the second couch in the family room we have had since we moved to Seattle a decade ago. So we need more sitting space. When the neighborhood kids are over watching movies, there isn’t enough room for everyone. And my mom likes to lay on the couch so I just had to have something more comfortable. It’s the room we live in most…why not make it comfortable? Then of course when you are laying out that kind of money…why not just go ahead and buy the end tables and behind the couch table to go with it. Cause really… it’s not that much more…

Ugh.

I know I’ll be happy when it’s here. Actually, at least the stock market has done well this year. Now I just need to get that freaking house in Florida rented for a few more months and then everything will be good. And if hubby can get his promotion… things will even be better.

Maybe I need to go back to work so I can support the lifestyle I want.

Nahhh.

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