I guess I have some sort of virus. IT SUCKS! The biggest symptom? Pervasive fatigue. I am talking about muscle aches like there is no tomorrow. Slightly sinusy. Hurts to even raise my arms above my head kinda tired. It needs to GO AWAY NOW. I didn’t work out yesterday or today. And I doubt Im going to do my swim tonight. This thing is bringing me down.

Enough about that. The only thing worse then having weakness is talking about it.

Interesting talk today about what you say to yourself when you are running or biking and you feel like you can’t go on any more. I’m reading about all these athletes who say all these positive things to themselves. Me… I say “hmmm. Let’s stop this”. I’m seeing how my mindset doesn’t match up with real athletes. I need to mirror their “go get ‘em you can do anything” attitude. I’ve always had an attitude problem though. My father has told me that since I was 10. What makes me think Im going to change now at 39? (I almost said 40… but i have a few more months in my thirties….)

Actually an interesting mindset a lot of them have is to be like “oh… there you are pain… I recognize you”. Sorta to know it’s coming. Accept it and then when it happens you can live with it. And then just shut up and deal with it. I sort of do that with my life. I dont know if I can do that with physical pain. Of course I think that assumes that a major part of the problem is a surprise it showed up… honestly that is not my problem. I expect it. Its not an expectation problem. It’s a PAIN problem. And I can make it stop by stopping. So why not?

Because in my head I believe with all my heart and soul that pain and learning to process through it will make you a stronger person.

No really.

Feel free to remind me of this belief.

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