On Sunday, I swam 1/2 mile. I was still sick. I came home after that swim and slept 3 hard hours. I should have run yesterday but just didn’t feel up to it yet. Today I biked a little over 12 miles. Easy bike with a friend. Felt about 85% back. Loved the bike ride! Can feel it a little bit in my muscles but I think I’ll be fine tomorrow. Going to do some Yoga stretches tonight and make hubby give me a massage to take the edge off. Tomorrow night is my swim and I am hoping to do my half mile with no rest breaks. Thursday I am running with my best friend who runs 9 minute miles and is going to pace me at 12:30 miles. I have so much trouble with pacing myself. She told me today she thinks that I have a big disconnect between my brain and my body. That I don’t listen to my body when I am exercising. Uh — yeah. I’ve never listened to my body. My body sucks! That’s why I was fat. She says that I look for external “cues” to direct me (after the fact) instead of just focusing on how I feel. Maybe. Probably. I dunno. I have to say that I must not be at a point to accept it yet because I feel like just saying “whatever — just shaddup and make me faster”. I feel the need for speed! I tend to focus on measurable stuff and discount emotions. It’s the Kym way. It’s the old Kym way anyway. I guess I need to give it all more thought.

In other news, I have been trying to lose a little weight so it’s easier to propel this big honking mass, I call: my body, through air and water. I’ve been training hard. Losing a few pounds to look better is nice too… but I really need to drop some weight for performance reasons. I’ve been talking about it for months. I’ve lost between 18 and 22 lbs depending on the day since last year. I have been really committed to trying to get another 10 lbs off before the Tri since I started training. My eating has been pristine. So what does my husband do? He brings home a big box of Lindt Chocolate Truffles. *sigh* Hello?! Have you not been listening to me about the weight stuff? I feel slightly irked and quite frankly a bit sabotaged. I know he is nurturing me through food… but it.has.to.stop. It’s not healthy. And if you must nurture me through food bring me home some exotic expensive fruits!!!

Ok…that concludes my bitchfest for today.

Related posts:

  1. Tri update
    2.   Leslie wrote and asked me how I was doing...
  2. Weekly Tri Report Week One
    3.   My Tri Training Report. Focusing not just...
  3. Training Recap
    4.   Life is going well. I'm loving my summer. ...